Blug...

Not much super fun to write about this week... apart from being really busy still catching up on bow orders and spending a totally inordinate amount of time stuck to my glue gun (literally :))- we've also been really trying to work with Carolyn on helping her learn to control her anger and to accept correction. There have been some difficult moments with her lately- 90% of the time she is just really great and amazing and wonderful and delightful and all other beautiful things- but the 10% of the time she isn't like that is A-W-F-U-L. There was a nasty incident with a babysitter the other night who unwittingly selected the WRONG pajamas for her... END of the world... and a few other key moments that have really convicted us that NOW is the time for us to really stick it out with her, to stop being afraid of her anger and stop short-cutting our discipline strategy because we don't want to take the 2 or 3 hours that it might take sometimes for her to truly be repentant and accepting of correction. It might take a week or two of being really firm, really consistent, and really willing to "go there" with her. But we're convinced that it is absolutely necessary we do so, and we're hoping on the other side of the battle there will be a greater ability for self-control, and an enhanced sense of right and wrong and ability to be more humble and repentant and obedient from the heart (lofty goals perhaps?!) So anyway, there have been some long hours in the past week where we are really trying to help her to learn to make right choices even when she's angry or doesn't feel like it's fair. She is SO much like me- you'd think that would make it easier, make me understand better... but it really doesn't because although I generally don't scream and attempt to destroy things- when we get into these battles, I am JUST as angry as she is! I just control it better. And I guess that's what we are trying to teach her how to do. But there really aren't any pictures of this... because frankly it's draining... and not very much fun!

But then I go in to look at her and hug her and kiss her while she sleeps... and remember how totally and 100% WORTH IT it is. She is an amazingly fabulous child... and she deserves the very best we can give her- even if it'd be easier to take the short cuts sometimes!